Self Reflection .

I've wasted too much time on relationship this year.
010109 , to be specific . If we're still together , tmrw's our 1st year.
But who cares , we're over .
Putting in too much into relationship, I've neglected on studies.
Quarreled many times with mother over this matter, and nearly got thrown out of house (Y)
Whatever , I'm very tired already .

Wasted time playing this year, didn't get what I've expected I'll get.
Top 25% in stream , but my bursary's gone because of one mistake I did .
Regretted playing so much , my results could have been far better than what I have now .
But what's over is over , no point dwelling on it . All I could do is to work even harder next year.

Friendship problem this year .. I've no idea if it's alright already .
Everything seems not to be so right for me this year .
(N) to 2009 , hopefully from tomorrow onwards, it'll be a better year ahead for me ..
No more nonsense , no more troubles , no more conflicts, no more stress . :)

We're not as close as before ,
I've said this many times, I don't know if you realize it or not .
A relationship takes two people to build it up , but one person to end it .
I don't want you , nor I to end it :(
Sorry for what happened last night , for accusing you when I've not gotten my facts right ..
I'm really sorry ..
Sorry that I couldn't accompany you again today , I've promised you , but I really can't make it .. Thats what makes me feel bad .
Sorry for not being there for you when you need someone or when you're down .
Sorry for making you sad or angry because of small matters ..
Sorry for breaking promises, time and time again .
Sorry for letting you being worried about me .
Sorry for all misunderstandings caused .
Sorry for all troubles I gave .
Sorry for all tempers I've given .
Sorry for all that I've did ..
I know there's no point for me to say this now ..
Sigh . 54 days , Iloveyou.
I miss you ,
I miss your everything darling. :(