It's your love that made me continue walking till today, thanks for all the memories.

I may not be the girl that you want to spend forever with, but at least, in the past 4 months and 21 days, we're happy, and we're sad. We're irritated by little things, we quarrel. And this time I chose to let you go, is because I've got no more feeling, plus there's other issue. He wasn't the third party, and mainly I ended this is because, I'm tired, I couldn't go on. I've tried my best to let this keep on going, but have you ever tried to keep us going? I don't see the effort that you've put in, really.. You might say that you've put in enough effort, but I don't see nor feel it.. You're a very nice guy, and I really don't want to keep you by my side for all the time that I have.. Really, I believe you can find someone much better than me. One who isn't so wildful, who isn't so stubborn, who isn't so childish, who isn't so petty, like me. Don't waste your time on me anymore, I don't worth your time at all. Even though I don't really bear to let you go, but still, I hope you and I will let each other go. After all, Freedoms and Friends are what we need most, right? :') Stop reproaching yourself for what happened, it's my fault for letting you go, and I don't even know if you think that you're wrong anot. So yeap, wish you all the best in the future, anything can still tell me, let's remain as friends.

0711092315-2803102149, thanks love, for all the memories we both left for each other, the love we once shared, the thoughts we once had in common.

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Back to posting, I wanted to post the above yesterday, but was in a rush, but forget it -.-
Had a terrible night last night, crying, struggling to pull myself through. But I hope, everything will be alright soon :) 


Woke up as usual, wanted to do something when I'm in the bus, but I didn't have the courage, plus I'm really afraid I'll break down again, so didn't manage to do it ;\ Texted with Thidar and Mathew in bus, gahhhhh, anyway thanks honey for buying my greentea, luv ya <3.

Went to hall for assembly. Thidar stood up because she didn't bring thermometer to hall, I stood up too because I pei Thidar, and mine had no battery. Daughter stood up also, but I forgotten why, damn xiasuey, our class 6 ppl stood up -.- There's this Cleanliness competition, and our class is incharge of the hall. We don't even know we're incharge of it, and our class scored the lowest among whole Sec 3 ? 32.5 out of 100, (Y)

Back to class, had change of timetable. Geography came first, but teacher didn't come, so yea free period. Someone came and ask me about me and him, and I just said "Over." And I just practically broke down in class, I cried. Smile and cry, smile and cry, like one ahhai ah -.- Went to toilet, thn met Thidar and daughter downstairs, thn Yibin came along. Didn't rly want to talk much, went back, stayed in class for awhile, before changing and going off for PE. PE is like so god damn boring ah, throw dk what ball LOL.

Maths class, made use of copying work for daughter to stop me from anyhow thinking. Okay it did work for awhile, but after that I started to anyhow think again, but I didn't cry this time, yay me. Recess with usual cliques, damn funny ahs ! We're like imagining, if we're to buy things from a certain stall, the aunty will ask what we want, and we might say the following.....

Aunty: Xiao mei/Xiao di, what you want ah?
Me: Fuck you!
Thidar: Your mum!
Calvin: Express students~
Daughter: So, then, what?
Yuru: Limbei mao ni ah!

HAHAHA, back to class for Social studies. Did work again, but okok lahs, abit bored w/o anyone texting me, bu xi guan ._. Chinese next, was pekcek la, h2h talk with Thidar for awhile ;\ CME was rather slack, did revision for Chemistry. Had Chemistry test after math, damn hard cuz I wasn't in the mood to study, uh-oh~ Jason Lim then texted me saying that he reached our school for bball competition, LOL!

Lunch time wanted to find Jason but was shy, h3h3h3xzxzx. Ite never find, went to ISH awhile thn rush back for A maths class. Went toilet with Thidar, thn back to class copying work. After awhile went downstairs to meet Mathew againzx, talk talk awhile, h3h3h3x, thn went back to class ~ Class ended, went to bus stop with Jingpoh, Fitrah, Thidar and daughter. Pei Thidar wait for 157, thn we keep parroting Thidar, xD Thidar board the bus le, me and daughter went to bubble tea shop. H2h talks with her, xoxo . But rly, I feel better after talking to someone, and I agree with what daughter says, ;x ahahaaa, thn went to 457 bus stop wait for 334, daughter pei me take for 2 stops, thn she alighted. HSH @ 5.

Reminder to self: Remember take back thumbdrive from Mathew, stupid pig forget return me when I meet him just now when I sneaked out of class >;(

And to those that are trying to ask me if I'm with Mathew, this is the answer:
No I'm not with him, even though we're like super close. And I didn't break up with my boyfriend because of him, there're many other reasons, and he wasn't the third party alright. Don't anyhow think, like seriously. So what if I like him or not? It doesn't bother you all at all. Even if I like him, I don't see a need for telling you all why, and stop trying to brainwash me about his bad points, -.-

First day without you, I'm not used to it.. But I guess we will get use to it soon? :') And once again, do take care. Remember to share with me all your joys and sorrow alrights, even though we're no longer together, but I hope we can still remain as good friends like how we were once, before. Loves.